Into my psyche

In most of my posts, I give insight into my daily life, this one will allow you to get into my mind. I usually don't allow many people in there because there isn't much going on usually. But so now, I was depressed for a few days. For those who didn't know I really liked Andella, I sent her flowers in hopes to push Brian, the guy she likes, out of the picture, (I know it was rather immature). But when she received them she just gave me a thank-you. I was expecting something . . . more. I interpreted the "Thank You" as a rejection. The depression came as a result of my inability to understand what our friendship was.
Now, I have been running myself ragged lately and stress is a thing that was becoming apparent. The thing with Andella added to my stess & it was the straw that set me off. I was SICK of it all & I wanted out.
I sat and thought about giving up for all day Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. On Tueday we went to a bar and nothing would have made me happier on Tuesday night than to go order 5 shots of Jack; I wanted to escape from it all. It was kind of odd that on Tuesday and Thursday at school we mainly discussed religion. , It was apparent that I couldn't escape from God. That bothered me. I was stressing even worse now.
On Thursday night I came online and talked to a friend. We discussed my stress levels. I've been relaxin and talking to God every so often so I don't stress major. He is so good. He just sits and listens to me. He gives me solice. I hate to pawn my worries off on him but he takes them and I don't know what he does but they are gone. So I suppose the idea of this whole thing is this: Don' put yourself in my position. It's a terrible spot to be in. Go get relief from God. And the secondary theme would probably be: God sticks to you man. When you don't want to be bothered he's there knocking at your heart.

Dangeresque Dan